How do you feel? (Mood)

[Mystique]

Thanks everyone, I hope it'll be okay 

[Persephone]

Pretty crappy. A friend of ours (me and my bf) just gave a birth to her daugther Stela. I should be happy but actually it makes me sad. I feel empty.

[Lucy]

Don't tell yourself how you "should feel". I understand that you are feeling bad about it. Well, you rather have to make a choice: the energy you are using for torturating yourself like "they already have a child and me not" should be collected, concentrated, because you will need it when YOUR time comes.

[Persephone]

I'm trying to fight it, to avoid the torture... but it's simply something too strong. I guess I'll have to survive.

In such situations I feel that my previous life was better in this. I did not felt bound to anyone and anything. Nothing could touch me really. I was like a ship - came to one harbour and before I got used to something and gained some sentiment for it, I packed my things and went to another harbour. A traveller.
Sometimes I think this life would be much better for me. No sentiment, no hurts.

[Lucy]

Keep yourself busy. Draw, read, wash the dishes, go to a walk, watch a funny video or sleep.

[Lucy]

You still have chosen this life for some reason.

[Persephone]

Because I had to choose something. But still I will be dived like this into 2 people. The wild part and the other one.

[Lucy]

If you had chosen the other option, now you would like to live the other. I'm doing this since long years.

[Persephone]

I don't really know if I am or not envious about those who are not ambivalent. 

[Lucy]

Since we are made like this, let's try to do something about it.

[Mystique]

I'm back and I feel great! I've passed both of my exams    beer for all! 

[Luth]

CONGRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

[Markus]

Yay, congrats! 

Well, we knew you'd pass!

Cheers!

Markus

[Mystique]

Thank you guys
 

[Persephone]

Big Congratz to You dear Mysti!

[Lucy]

Hoooorraaaaay!

[Mystique]

Thanks girls 

how do I feel? Great, playing music for the first time after a while, on an instrument I've never played before (or at least not by notes). I never thought it would be this easy to go from clarinet to piano, I just need to get used to reading bass clef 
And I'm almost done with learning the whole For Elise. I started last night 
I forgot how relaxing playing music can be.

[The One]

Glad to hear you passed.
Told ya, you could do it!

[Agnes]

angry and sad

I had been painting my nails, accidently the nail polish had fallen (it was my fault  ) from my desk and stained a rug and one of my fav trousers.. and it's impossible to remove the stains..  

+ coming Friday (day I will try to pass my last exam) is too late. The professor won't be earlier at the uni, while I have to pass the exam before Thursday.. it means I will have to repeat the lecture (Economics of Environment protection or sth like that).. -> good I don't have to pay for it but I miss my last chance to get a fellowship..

+ It seems that I won't work since October. The reason is that my plan at the uni is horrible. I work from 5pm to 7pm usually. My classes ends at 4pm or even later like 8pm on Monday.. it's impossible to be on time at work (there is a renovation of my railway station + the closest one to my work). The renovations is starting tomorrow. Huge traffic is all the time, imagine more than half of trains not stopping at my station.. 1 additional bus - 1 for an hour..


I'm sorry...

but..

thanks for reading, listening, your time and attention.





Unfortunately I don't feel better, I'm hopeless and down.  

[Persephone]

Hmm... have You tried to put the clothe where's the stain into the nail polish remover? I used to do this... and if it wasn't too delicate fabric, it usually worked...